I want to ask your forgiveness for lying to you all of these years.
I clothed you and superficially adored you when deep inside I never truly loved you.
for that I am deeply sorry.
I am sorry that I was never strong enough to stand up for you
I am sorry that I let you fade to non-existence
I am sorry that I never gave you a chance to voice your frustrations
I am sorry I tortured you to silence.
I am sorry I empathized with your perpetrators and ignored your bleeding.
I guess – I am sorry for everything.
My vows to you may now worth less than nothing
but I would like to go ahead and whisper them to you.
From then on,
I vow to be on your side no matter what it takes.
I vow to cherish you and love you like no one has ever been able to
I vow to nurse your wounds and rock you to sleep peacefully until your tears are no more.
I vow to listen to you when you quiver to a strange touch and want me to speak your mind
I vow to relay your anger and encourage your innermost desire to glow
I vow to break that wall and let you go out in the universe like a wildflower
I vow to introduce you to genuine, natural, visceral love
The kind of love you will feel in your bones
The kind that heals your fresh scars with a kiss
The kind of love that sees past your smile and your curves
The kind of love you’ve always deserved.
None of this is your fault, I am responsible.
I let them look at you and pick away piece of your mind and body
I let them trade your heart for a few simple pleasures
While I sit on the sideline observing your resilience.
I am here imploring your pardon
I am sorry it took so long
Never again, will I allow you to be a pleasure, an instance, a memory, a taunting dance
I am sorry I kept running away from you.
I am now here, and here for you alone.
I am here to stay, to love you, to feel you, to be all you want me to be
I am all yours, now, forever…eternally.